July 9, 2008 ~ Honestly, I’m Sick Of This

Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible,

but with God all things are possible.”

~Matthew 19:26

I woke up this morning feeling sick of it – sick of going to MD Anderson to receive chemo treatments, sick of thinking about it, sick of having it in my life – sick of this cancer altogether!!! It feels like something that seeks to define me; something that wants to overwhelm everything else that is in me and in my life. It feels like a huge cloak that wants to cover me, hide me, and become all that I am about. And yet . . .

I know that with Christ all things are possible. I know that He is the biggest, and best, part of who I am. I know that He is at work in me. I know that He loves me and I know that He has the power to heal me completely. I know He is bigger, more powerful, and more magnificent than this (or any) disease. He who can calm the sea can also heal this cancer and calm my restless heart. This I know! I also know that what He has begun in me, He will complete.

Philippians 1:3-6: I thank my God every time I remember you. In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now, being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

So, this morning I have a choice. A choice to allow my day to be governed by what I feel, or by what I know. I will turn my ear to the Word of God, I will sing songs to Him, and I will choose to bless His name. In fact, the song “All Things Are Possible” which I played while I prepared breakfast this morning, lifted my spirit and caused me to focus on the things that I know – I may be temporarily sick of this journey, but He remains my safe refuge, He is still my Rock, He is strengthening me, and filling my life with joy. What I feel today is temporary; what He gives me daily is eternal.

I choose to give the strength of my day to that which is true, unshakeable, and everlasting.

2 Corinthians 2:14: But thanks be to God, who always leads us in triumphal procession in Christ and through us spreads everywhere the fragrance of the knowledge of him.

All Things Are Possible

listen here: http://youtube.com/watch?v=Z-gt9Ig8dpk

Almighty God my Redeemer, my hiding place, my safe refuge

No other name like Jesus, no power can stand against you

My feet are planted on this rock and I will not be shaken

My hope it comes from you alone, my Lord and my Salvation

Your praise is always on my lips, your Word is living in my heart

And I will praise you with a new song, my soul will bless you Lord

You fill my life with greater joy, as I delight myself in you

And I will praise you with a new song, my soul will bless you Lord

My feet are planted on this rock and I will not be shaken
My hope it comes from you alone, my Lord and my Salvation
Your praise is always on my lips, your Word is living in my heart
And I will praise you with a new song, my soul will be bless you Lord

You fill my life with greater joy, as I delight myself in you
And I will praise you with a new song, my soul will bless you Lord

When I am weak you make me strong,
When I’m poor, I know I’m rich for in the power of your name
All things are possible, all things are possible

Your praise is always on my lips, your Word is living in my heart
And I will praise you with a new song, my soul will be bless you Lord

You fill my life with greater joy, as I delight myself in you
And I will praise you with a new song, my soul will bless you Lord

When I am weak you make me strong,

When I’m poor, I know I’m rich for in the power of your name

All things are possible, all things are possible